have u wanted something so bad..then when its finally happening, you realise that you dont want it anymore?i know how stupid it sounds but thats exactly where i am right now..i wanted for this to happen for over 3..maybe 4 years now and now, its happening and i dont want it to anymore, i find myself running away from it. perhaps its because, ive gotten used to the waiting process that im comfortable with it that i dont want to take the next step because it might not work out after all. i dont know..i dont even want to think about it. right now, i just dont want it to happen.