When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving much advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a gentle and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing, and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.
Henri Nouwen.

I want to thank the people that have stood by my side throughout the awful times this past year. Thank you for choosing the perfect things to say. Things might still be horrid but hey, the year is almost coming to an end, its the perfect reason to start anew. We'll get through it together. Now remember, tis the season to be jolly,lets not sulk and I wish all of you great success, countless moments of wisdom,phenomenal days + all the happiness one can handle for the new year. Have a great one y'all.

Lotsa Love,

Patricia!

Rants,Christmas and The Good Riddance of 2009.

for the past couple of months,ntg seems the way it should be but one can only dwell so much on the negative until u just want to think happy thoughts. Yeap,parts of this post is not goin to make much sense, but thats just me complaining.
I reckon i should get one of those white complain bands you know, the one where u wear on your right hand and if you complain,switch it to the left, and back and forth until you can stop complaining for 21days straight.

Every year i look forward to christmas but this year, i m ABSOLUTELY(CANT STOP BEING ON A SUGAR RUSH) EXCITED for christmas cos when the goin gets tough, i hardly talk abt it, i just have a good time and forget abt it. 2009 is not a year i would like to remember. It was not an OK year for me. It still isnt. Thats why i cant wait for 2010 where i plan to plan less and just be more spontenous,less paranoid and just to go with the freaking flow. And yeah, i plan to think less to. Not everything has to be thought out to the core right?

But nonetheless I am extremely grateful for many many things, for my family and for the many things i have overcomed this year, truly what doesnt kill you only makes you stronger. Im grateful for the safety,health and happiness of my loved ones, after all, that is the only important thing to me.

james morrison-pieces dont fit anymore
paloma faith-new york
john mayer-who says
leona lewis-happy
emmy rossum-slow me down
the perishers-nothing like you and i
thriving ivory-twilight

I WANT TO STOP THINKING,

FOR A LIL BIT.

to me, being myself is one of the most important things. I have my own opinions about things,sometimes they agree with the general society but mostly they dont. So, i agree to disagree most of the time. My friends and i talk about everything from politics to euthanasia, and mostly our opinions differ but that doesnt mean that our general perspective towards life is different. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. I was brought up to respect the opinions and differences even though i couldnt agree with them.

In addition to that, i just wanted to say that in conjuction with , respect those around you in spite of their differences.

One of my favourite writers, Maya Angelou, once said,

You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

If you're going to give me a lecture on something, i am willing to listen and learn, so long as you practice what you preach.

Thank you for being there for me when i needed you the most for i am glad that you held my hand and made me laugh.

Hope is definitely not the same thing as optimism. It is not the conviction that something will turn out well, but the certainty that something makes sense, regardless of how it turns out. Václav Havel

Who says-John Mayer

Who says I can’t be free?

From all of the things that I used to be

Re-write my history

Who says I can’t be free?

i just read a friends blog and i found a line in her entry-its ok not to be ok.

My Soul gave me good counsel, teaching me that the lamp which I carry does not belong to me, and the song that I sing was not generated from within me.

music everyone should listen to- Paloma Faith's. She rocks.

Living is easy with eyes closed, misunderstanding all you see.It's getting hard to be someone but it all works out.It doesn't matter much to me. (J.Lennon)

you asked me why i am angry,so this is it, you didnt fight for it. You just gave up,just like that. You didnt even put up a fight before you waived the white flag. So,im not mad that you lost...im disappointed that you gave up.

Check out this awesome software which changes ur ordinary pics to look like they were taken with a polaroid camera..the website is.. http://www.poladroid.net/..

All i ever talked about was the holidays..this is it,how come i am super bored?

When a million things are changing all at once, should i be worried that it is never going to be the same? Some of my dearest friends told me to embrace the changes and others told me to let go.
But when i think back, things were never normal to begin with so i think i'll be ok with a little bit of change. They say its a good thing after all.

Time is moving just a little too fast for my liking,i want to freeze it and remember every second.

updates

its over!!its finally over!im talking about my clp la..ntg else. im super stoked about it being over because i can finally have a life again. i could never see clp as just another exam, cos it wasnt..it was THE EXAM..the one everyone failed..dreaded..everything!
ok enuf sadness..back to the good stuff!went shopping today wif my mum, although i didnt get everything i was looking for..im satisfied,for now..lol..
im going for dinner in abit wit a couple of good frens and then im off to HK for a week or so..its gonna be fun!
when i come back, going to penang..then kk..my plan is to do as much travelling as i can in this two months..then its back to countless hours of busy-ness.

im not one for giving up but when the odds are these much stacked against you, what can you really do? trying to be positive requires a constant effort and as though i dont have much to do already..
but i think i'll be ok,i'll persevere and whatever the outcome is i'll just deal with it,do i have another option?
Beyond a certain point there is no return. This point has to be reached. ~ Franz Kafka

once this is over, im gonna be needing some major retail therapy.

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.
-Reinhold Niebuhr

randomness at its best..

what do u do when you've got so much to do that you dont know where to start?you stop and think about all of these things..at least i am now..

im just taking each day as it comes, not thinking about tomorrow. He( William McFee) did say that the world belongs to the enthusiast who keeps cool and if fate means you to lose, give him a good fight anyhow.

today was really eye opening to me..someone really close to me mentioned some things i never thought id ever hear coming from him and im conciously vowing to change that part of me. Learning to let go is step one. step 2- dont try being friends,step 3- stop thinking about it.

i need a break but i dont have the time for one. gosh. the weather sucks. how i wish i was laying in a beach somewhere right now..yup 2 more months and thats where im gonna be, hopefully.

Earth Hour Malaysia

Hey everyone, just to tell those who havent already heard about, Earth Hour Malaysia is about doing your bit for the enviroment and turning off the lights in your house for one hour on the 28th of March from 8.30pm-9.30 pm.

It makes a big dfference and its a great way to raise awareness in malaysia. So spread the word and do your part.

For more information,visit http://www.earthhour.org.my/main.php

happy valentines day ppl!

Waking Up

TIME PASSES.EVEN WHEN IT SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE. EVEN when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls,but pass it does. Even for me.

Canon in D major by Pachelbel is the most beautiful thing ive ever heard.